No Matter how Exhausting it is…

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I have taken on another project. Have I finished the others? No… I just took on more. This is just one of the faults things that makes me crazy me.
So let’s run down the list of activities at the moment…

Teacher- yes, I teach 95 fifth graders in a tested subject. This is not only a full-time job but requires a lot of work outside of school. Working with kids is what God has called me to do, and I love teaching no matter how exhausting it is…

Children’s choir director- I have 17 gorgeous kiddos, from kindergarten to fifth grade. We are currently putting together a musical for April which will be a true blessing to all. I truly love helping them sing praises to our God, no matter how exhausting it is…

Assistant youth choir director- Hubby assists me with the little ones and I assist him with the bigs. We have 14 talented youth. We are currently working on a program for May. My job is to run copies, run sound, help the sopranos, and be a go-fer for my sweet husband. I love helping him, no matter how exhausting it is…

Kingdom Kids- I wrote in my last post about the new ministry the Lord had put in my heart to begin.  I have met with my kiddos only once so far… and it was definitely challenging.  I have a lot of different age levels that I had to mesh together, but I think the kids enjoyed all that we did.  I am holding fast to God’s plan for this group, no matter how exhausting it is…

Sunday School Teacher- I teach my SS class.  I am the only teacher.  My class is made up of new Christians who want to learn more about the scriptures.  I am the only one who has ever spent any time in Christian education, so I am their fearless leader as we travel from Genesis to Revelation.  It has been more of a blessing to me as I prepare the lessons and delve deeper into God’s word than I ever have before, no matter how exhausting it is…

Websites- I was tricked into asked to take over our school’s website (sigh) and then was very excited and practically begged to take on our church website (my new project).  I love working with technology and find it very gratifying to watch the number of hits increase as I make changes and improvements to each site.  It is super satisfying to me, no matter how exhausting it is…

Mother- I am the mom to two very independent youth.  My big is nearly 16 and my little has just turned 11.  They hardly need help with homework, and they are so responsible they need little prodding to complete their school work.  That means I can focus more on yelling at them gently suggesting that they do their housework.  They are so much fun.  We laugh and talk together, and I really enjoy spending time with them.  I love being their mom, no matter how exhausting it is…

Wife- Hubby and I recently celebrated 18 years of marriage, 22 years together, and 1 year renewed…  I love this man with all my heart.  I am so very thankful that he chose to forgive me.  We are total opposites, and yet alike in so many ways.  Most of the time sometimes we do not see eye to eye, but I am happy to give in compromise.  He is my best friend and all I will ever need.  I love being his wife, no matter how exhausting it is…

Of course, I have the daily ins and outs of life to contend with: meals, chores, getting kids to practice, grocery shopping, not to mention the committees I sit on… and all of that adds up to one exhausted lady.  This weekend I hit a breaking point where I felt overwhelmed.  I had not completed a project that my husband was relying on me for and I felt bad… and that started a domino effect where I became overwhelmed by all I was doing.

Then last night, God gave me rest.  No, I didn’t get to bed any earlier… and I was still up before the dawn this morning.  But, God allowed me the time to sit, vegetate relax, and enjoy my family.  Truly, I could not think of anything that needed to be done (although the list was long) which I am convinced was God’s way of saying it could wait.  I mean, literally, literally I sat there and tried to thing of my to-do list and could come up with nothing.  And I was renewed.  I am still tired (thanks Daylight Savings Time), but I can face the day.

It is dark and rainy in NC today… that makes my depression rear its ugly head.  I have been trying hard to put thoughts of Ann far from my mind.  And I am trusting God to get me through.  I am thankful that God gives me the hard times to appreciate the good.  He sees me through each trial, gives me a message of hope for tomorrow, and holds me close till I feel strong again. That way I can continue to walk humbly with my God another day…

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